Four For Fore

 It's pretty evident that I prefer physical work over technical tasks such as writing and administration, basically, office work. I feel like I have to know exactly what I want to do before writing anything. Even now, as I hesitate to write this, I am incrementally deciding what to write. This blog wasn't really meant to have any direction. It's just a way for me to let out my thoughts for me to ponder about as I read it over, later. More like a freeform journal than a book with a story and plot. ADHD is on full blast, in my mind. World news today is only adding fuel to the fire of chaos. I think I'll go back to reading daily. I don't see how most of the stuff happening around the world has any direct effect on me. As much as people complain about the evils of political leaders, I have yet to see any action be taken by the mass population to eradicate them. Just talk, no walk. Accusations and allegations but mass confusion causing deflection of blame to others who seem more convenient to punish.

Everyday I try not to lose my shit. I knew starting your own business was tough, but not like this. I am more broke now than I ever was. Just got a flat tire last night while driving for deliveries. Event planning hit a speed bump due to policy change from the host that disallows alcohol consumption without a liability insurance. Coordinating appointments with influencers for more videos to post on social media. Sales are still too low. Worldwide pandemonium only increases my stress level. I still think I've seen something like this happen before, in my lifetime. 

From all the self-help books I've read, these is a common theme, which is, focus on yourself. Everything else is distraction. Work on what benefits you.