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Fool's Day

There's been a lot of doubt looming over me, recently, caused by the sprinkle of sales with no sight of increasing anytime soon. The excitement of owning a business is quickly fading. Only the reality of being broke remains and each day the revenue does not meet the expenses brings more doubt into the clouds. I'm just going to work here until I'm told I can't anymore. The last task given was to expand the menu to include kids meals, but I don't think I have the funds to cover that. I barely have the funds to cover for the main COGs. There has to be something in my control that I can work on to improve sales, but what could that be.  Smoked the last joint from my stash, last night. Can't afford to be burning ten dollars a day to vegetate. I must face life sober and accept everything as they come. I feel old, tired, lazy, broken, and generally, exhausted. Why is it difficult for me to stay sober? First thing that comes to mind is boredom. Most of life is boring an...

Gotta Start Somewhere

There have been numerous attempts to make it a habit for myself to write about something to keep a record of this existence. Feels like the urge grows more mighty as the years pass.  A friend of mine once told me that the condition of your teeth is a representation of your life. If that is true, then, my life is falling apart. However, I am in a situation, at the current state, that I believe there is no exit other than the recently censored word.   For starters, reducing screen time has become the new focus and we shall see if I can keep log of every time I have the urge to doom scroll. Swiping up on your phone endlessly to keep the mind distracted from the boring passage of time. But, who said it was boring, or that it boredom must be fulfilled with entertainment?  Why do we want to distract ourselves from the boredom of life? When did it become boring? Why is it so boring? I, probably, won't be able to answer all these questions in one post. Although, I do think o...