Things I think of

Never have I felt so lost than how I feel now. Owning a business doesn't guarantee success and no one tells you that there is no guide to take you there. Everything must be figured out by yourself. You have to do everything. And everyday it feels so overwhelming, not knowing if what you do today will bring profit tomorrow. I just feel stuck, again, but worse this time. What can I do to improve sales without having to use money? Pretty much, everything I can think of doing for marketing and advertising involves a transaction of money. What methods have I not tried that is low cost or free? The uncertainty of near future earnings seems to frustrate me the most. What am I overlooking, or have not noticed to work on? I can't just pray for a better day. I have to do something about it. But what? At this point, I guess, anything to convert sales.  Could it be that due to a sense of hopelessness I am more susceptible to be drawn into entertainment for the sake of passing time and to d...

 It's pretty evident that I prefer physical work over technical tasks such as writing and administration, basically, office work. I feel like I have to know exactly what I want to do before writing anything. Even now, as I hesitate to write this, I am incrementally deciding what to write. This blog wasn't really meant to have any direction. It's just a way for me to let out my thoughts for me to ponder about as I read it over, later. More like a freeform journal than a book with a story and plot. ADHD is on full blast, in my mind. World news today is only adding fuel to the fire of chaos. I think I'll go back to reading daily. I don't see how most of the stuff happening around the world has any direct effect on me. As much as people complain about the evils of political leaders, I have yet to see any action be taken by the mass population to eradicate them. Just talk, no walk. Accusations and allegations but mass confusion causing deflection of blame to others who s...

We have several projects in progress, simultaneously. The primary operation being the restaurant business and events planning as a close second. Let's identify the subtasks for these two categories and maybe we can relieve some mental pressure. It feels like there is an overwhelming amount of work that needs to be done, but it could just be my perception. The amount of work might turn out to be less than expected.  After doing some reorganizing of the shop, I think there is more that I can improve on when it comes to workflow efficiency. Space is limited, indeed, but I noticed there are some slow movers, like the brown paper bags, which I don't use, anymore.  I still have quick sessions of doom scrolling. Need to stop myself sooner and try to break the frequency. I should focus on work, but that mean I have to create the work that needs to be done to get me closer to my goals. What are my goals? I want to develop this business far enough to where I have employees running it fo...

It's only been three days and I can already feel the declining interest to maintain this blog. There are some specific questions that linger in my mind that causes this; Who am I to think I am someone of importance to write something for others to read? Who will read it? Why would they care? Nihilism is quite prevalent. We should change the lens which we see the world with.  What others can gain from my writing should not be more important than my desire to organize my thoughts. It would be difficult for others to learn anything from cluttered slop of info which they would have to organize themselves. We have some tasks to tackle, today.  Updating the names of menu items should be fairly easy in comparison to creating a kids menu.  Dammit, had another doom scrolling session. Maybe about 15 minutes. I had to disengage before it pulled me in deeper. Anything about conspiracies and government cover-ups seem to entrance me the most. But, why? I think a lot of media about cons...

There's been a lot of doubt looming over me, recently, caused by the sprinkle of sales with no sight of increasing anytime soon. The excitement of owning a business is quickly fading. Only the reality of being broke remains and each day the revenue does not meet the expenses brings more doubt into the clouds. I'm just going to work here until I'm told I can't anymore. The last task given was to expand the menu to include kids meals, but I don't think I have the funds to cover that. I barely have the funds to cover for the main COGs. There has to be something in my control that I can work on to improve sales, but what could that be.  Smoked the last joint from my stash, last night. Can't afford to be burning ten dollars a day to vegetate. I must face life sober and accept everything as they come. I feel old, tired, lazy, broken, and generally, exhausted. Why is it difficult for me to stay sober? First thing that comes to mind is boredom. Most of life is boring an...

There have been numerous attempts to make it a habit for myself to write about something to keep a record of this existence. Feels like the urge grows more mighty as the years pass.  A friend of mine once told me that the condition of your teeth is a representation of your life. If that is true, then, my life is falling apart. However, I am in a situation, at the current state, that I believe there is no exit other than the recently censored word.   For starters, reducing screen time has become the new focus and we shall see if I can keep log of every time I have the urge to doom scroll. Swiping up on your phone endlessly to keep the mind distracted from the boring passage of time. But, who said it was boring, or that it boredom must be fulfilled with entertainment?  Why do we want to distract ourselves from the boredom of life? When did it become boring? Why is it so boring? I, probably, won't be able to answer all these questions in one post. Although, I do think o...